Everyone says High School... or maybe its Middle School? Anyways, everyone says that is the most awkward time in your life... and I disagree.
I think during High School life is less awkward, and more confusing than anything else.
At the time you don't realize it... you simply just live...
You don't understand that you have no idea who you are as a person, you have no idea that the life you are living, the person you are acting like, is truly not you.
Its in college that you become the real you...
But its also in college that you realize that you have no idea who you are, and the process of finding that person is long and difficult.
Right now I believe I am in that stage.
I realize I don't completely understand my true self, but I don't know how to even come to the conclusion, "this is me"
I know I have begun the journey... just this year I have completely changed as a person... but I also know that this isn't the "final product" or however you want to word it.
I feel stuck.
Sometimes I feel like I can't wait until Im older...
I can't wait until I'm around the age 25... when life is just cruising...
but then I get worried..
what if I still don't know who I am at 25? or 35?
And that is when I realize that I like the age I'm at.
That I should be enjoying this time of discovery... because it only happens once.
So what is it.. am I happy or awkward about this stage of my life?
To be honest, I have no idea... and I change my feelings about it constantly.
Today it really hit me that I am one week away from being half way through college.
half way.
Thats crazy to me.
Where does time go?
Why do I have to grow up and become responsible?
It will all be ok.
Life is life... you can't change its pace.. you can only seize it as it comes and say au revoir as it passes you by.
xoxo
-K
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