I Feel

Finals are over....

my cutie is coming to visit me for the weekend...

and this song is exactly how I feel :)

Grizzly Bear-Cheerleader (Neon Indian Studio 6669 Remix)

Formspring

If there was a smiley face icon thats shows a sheepish grin.. I would use it right now.

I have FAILED at this, absolutely failed.

I blame tumblr. It just sucks me in.... all pretty looking and shit.

Im sorry blogger, I will never forsake you again.

I WILL be writing here more. I WILL.

So, my life has changed dramatically since I last wrote a submission.

But, since its finals.. I honestly have no time to share. But I will!

I will have an unnatural amount of time to waste while Im home for break, and thats when I will catch you up to speed.

Until then I would like to share a cute little link,

http://www.formspring.me/extraordinary

I got a formspring!!

This means, you can leave anonymous, messages, comments, mean things about how I have ignored you... and I get to read all of them! and then I can respond.

So check it, use it, do it!

Alright, enough procrastination...

xoxo

K

Androgyne 6, originally uploaded by Heli Hirvela.

androgynyisbeautiful

A box

Wow.

Wow.

Wow.

I don't even know where to begin its been so long.

too long.

I have changed.

For the better.

Its so much more clear now... because its so much more fuzzy.

my life, that is... its more clear.

The more layers I peel back, the more I examine the past, the more details I look at, the more it all makes sense.

And I love it.

I hate the confusion, but I love this.

I love figuring out who I am.

This is what Ive been waiting for.

And now its happening.

This makes no sense does it?

Well, thats because life is confusing.

And you can't put everything and everyone into a box.

like me :)

Im alive

Guess what?

IM ALIVE!

and its amazing

its hectic

and unpredictable

and common

and the same thing everyday

and something new everyday

and beautiful

and ugly

its truth

and lies

its hugs

and smiles

its tears

and shoulder

its everything I wanted

and many things I didn't

its overwhelming

its exciting

its monotonous

its habit

its everything I love

and lots of things I hate

its open your eyes

and look around

its everything could be gone in an instant

and never take it for granted

This is me

Hi my name is Kelsi and I like...

guitars/Bass

records (albums, LPS)

old vintage record players

eclectic prints, all together

hiking

converse

fixed gear bicycles

old cars

climbing trees

gum

lipton yellow label tea

wake-surfing

camping

rice cakes

snowboarding

silver jewelry

gaged ears

short fingernails

aviator sunglasses

venice beach

my glasses

spirituality

equal rights

burts bees chapstick

the sound of crinkly bed comforters

hanes hipsters

anatomy books

daisies

photography

working-out

rainbow brand flipflops

carabiners

metal water bottles

sandalwood smell

forests

music

ocean view

big city living

my mac

feathers

wife beater tanks

black pens

consistency

classic writers/poets

reading

jogging

sushi

tattoos

bike lanes

collages

peace

sunsets

old motorcycles

star-gazing

boats

and travelling

This is me... in case you didn't know... now you do

This is life

Time slips

Its slippery and slimy and squirmy

No matter how hard you try, no matter how tight you hold it

It will always slip away

It's taken me 20 years and 352 days to truly understand this concept

I mean to truly understand it

And here I am, not even watching my life move in fast forward,

instead it's like im blindfolded... not even taking the care to

open my blackened eyes and enjoy the fast blur of images...

I was lazy enough to simply stand oblivious as some of the most precious and most important events in my life went by, unseen.

It always takes a song to wake me up

Its the one thing that always slaps me awake,

that brings me back to reality.

Bon Iver

Why does it bring tears to my eyes?

Because I remember the feeling of butterflies I got in my stomach as I heard him play live for thousands, on a stage lit by stars, standing next to the person I love the most, my best friend, my sister. It was one of the most magical, most happy moments I can remember.

And then I remember that night. The night we sat by candle light... scribbling in our journals, weaving bracelets, listening to the storm outside and Bon Iver, mixing as they hit our ear drums. I remember looking up, and seeing your face in the candle light. You smiled. And that trip was amazing. I would do anything to be there, right now. How could I have taken it for granted? I apologize, because it truly was so great to be there with you. What an extraordinary summer. Bon Iver, he brings it all back to me. And I am so moved with memories, I cry... every time.

This is life

This is what we are living for

life is what we are living for

So I need to stop waiting around for my life to begin

because it has begun

This is life

Hello Again

Im sorry for deserting you...

I kind of got sidetracked by Tumblr....

But then I came around to my senses, and realize that I love Blogger so much better.

So please forgive me.

I promise I will make it up to you...

Once I get my shit together.

Hello new school year.

Hello Blogger.

:)

Thats gayyy

Today I took one for the team and took a trip to Walmart

or wait, .. I think its pronounced Wal*mart now

You have to put the star thingy in now... its copyrighted

Anyways.. so I headed over there

I began cringing the second I walked in there...

I mean, I actually had to think positive thoughts, and focus on the ground to make my way through the crowd.

Its not only the people that tend to shop there, but how crowded and hectic it is!

I knew I was in trouble the second my breathing pattern changed into more of a

in, in, out... kind of beat

I was mid Ziploc Big Bag search when an overly loud conversation in the next aisle overpowered my ear drums

It really was so obnoxious I don't want to take the time to repeat all of it

but the short version...

A little punk kid was whining to his mommy because the store that is supposed to have everything had only one boy college dorm aisle and they had threeeeeeee girl college dorm aisles... and they he proceeded to say "It's gay"

Now all of this horrible, unfunny rambling.. was for that one statement

So that I can continue this story about whining and whine to you about how much I haaaaaate when people say it.

And no, it is not a good argument to say "its just a normal statement now, it doesn't really mean anything..."

Ok yeah. it doesn't mean happy and joyful anymore, duh

but the way that you are using it.. it is demeaning

it is negative

it is hurtful.

Just think about it... really, think about what you are saying.

Its almost as bad as that new "no homo" thing that people are saying

"Hey man, I love you.. I want to give you a big kiss.........no homo"

Well what the hell?

Then just don't add that uncomfortable sexual reference at the end of your sentence and you wont have to add the stupid "no homo" shit at the end..

Homosexuals should start using "no straight"

"Man, I love you... we should go watch foootball.. yuuuuuuh........ no straight"

Ok, that one didn't really work... it wasn't funny

But I feel better now.. I just wanted to get that out..

hmm. ok. now I am going to direct my full attention to Chelsea Lately

Yes, Im addicted

Ugh News

I've wanted to post something new for the longest time

First of all because my last pots was disgustingly emo and sad

and secondly because its been way too long.

I got a tumblr.

Which is why I have been slacking off here more than normal

If you want to check it out (it has a different vibe than this)

It's kind of like if Blogger and Twitter met and had a baby...

that wasn't funny, but it got my point across

Its short and to the point-and I am displaying more of my photography on there

Surprise, surprise its the same name as this: emphasizetheordinary

only its a tumblr.com

I might change the name though... its boring.

So this update thing has become exactly what I didn't want it to be

boring

and news-y

but its better than nothing I guess

I can't wait until I'm back at school

for some reason I have more time to write there...

I can do daily posts again

yay.

And I also get way more inspired.

Which is weird.

I love my room here at home.

I am going to miss it terribly.

Its perfect.

I have finally succeeded in making my room my dream room...

and now I have to disassemble it and bring parts of it to Cali.

Oh what a shame.

Maybe I will actually listen to my mom and document my room on film before

it falls apart.

How dorky

Do you know what a "dork" really is?

If you need to look it up, you failed at being an annoying middle schooler.

Ok, now that I have officially written a post that I hate

I am going to go ahead and post it

and then pout about it

peace

BAM!

How does death sneak up on you so easily?

It just strikes from out of the blue

One day I am happy, taking everything for granted..

and then BAM!

4 days later I have two friends in the hospital

Both on the verge of death

Both for completely different reasons

But both are way too young for this

I feel like I am in a surreal nightmare

This has to be a nightmare

Come on Kelsi...

wake up

wake up

wake up

The Lie

I like reading the Sunday Secrets from PostSecret.

I can always make up simple one-liners about my life,

that fit nicely on a postcard.

but I have never sent one in...

Maybe its because I don't really have that many secrets...

Do I even have one?

Sometimes I lie to myself,

hoping that it will change what is really inside my head.

But in reality it changes nothing.

It just confuses me about what is real and what is fake.

The lies are just a beautiful mask, covering up the ugly truth.

Why do I feel the need to have "good looking" thoughts?

What's wrong with having a dirty mind?

I don't mean having a dirty mind like that.

well, not necessarily.

But we all see it sometimes...

that shameful, hidden side of us that only reveals itself through vivid imagination and thought.

Where does it come from?

I was corrupted by the age of 4

And no it was not from the Reading Rainbow guy.

I think it was pure curiosity.

Natural interest.

I can't blame that book in the library-because I didn't find that until much later.

And when I say I can trace my sexuality back as far as 4...

Im not joking.

It all connects.

It all makes sense.

But maybe, just maybe- its only because of hindsight?

then what?

Is it all just twisted up in my memory?

Is it really only a lie..

told to make myself feel better..

to connect imaginary dots and come about with a conclusion..

that is simply a mask on top of lie?

Hot in Herre

Im not a feminist

but it does look appealing

I was caught looking in the "Women Studies" section of Barnes & Nobel the other day

I was innocently curious, and thought perhaps there were books worth learning from

Instead I now know where the lesbian sex books are located

I went on a itunes buying spree today

Every artist I bought was female

All the male singers/songs sounded like shit to me

So why would I buy one?

I found a new song today

and I have no idea why it makes me as happy as it does

I think its because its a girl singing the words... giving the power back to the women

all the women this song humiliated and degraded

this remix is for all the women who sang the words at middle school dances, not understanding their true meaning

For those who provocatively danced for the pre-pubescent boys, not even knowing what their gestures mean

this song is for the girl who lost her self confidence and humility with that slap on her ass

Hot In Herre - Jenny Owen Youngs

Today, my friends went to Pride

Today, I went on a 4 hour desert hike with my overly conservative parents

FML

Tomorrow, I get to see my favorite people in the word- My siblings

<3

Curve

I took another step today

Life is full of baby steps... many, many baby steps

You should have seen her face when she looked at the title of the magazine

It would have never occurred,

this feeling of empowerment,

Ii the stupid magazine would have just rung up correctly on the register

But no..

Instead it beeped twice and she scanned the cover for a barcode, for a reason it didn't register

Instead she found some surprising words underneath the title

describing exactly what audience the magazine serves

THE BEST-SELLING LESBIAN MAGAZINE

Wonderful

Why is it always the "embarrassing" things, or at least the ones you want to keep on the down-low that don't work at the cash register.

Its always these items that they either have to type the barcode in by hand or call on the intercom to get their manager's attention

So it was one of those

Like usual

But I didn't care

It made me smile

It made me giggle inside

and when I left

when I took my bag from her hand

I truly meant what I said

"Thank you"

Because she gave me that boost

that much needed push for me to take the next step

As I slid my avaitors onto my face and walked through the heavy green doors into the parking lot

I wasn't just walking to my car

I was bouncing

and beaming from ear to ear

"You did it Kelsi"

I did it

Cherry Palooza

There are very few things in my life I can always count on...

And one of those is the abundance of cherries around the 4th of July

And thus, as a product of this established truth, there is one more thing stable in my life

And that is a lot of stomach aches around the 4th of July

Im not sure what it is..

If its the juicyness

the flavor

the cute little wrinkly pit in the center I get to spit out like a hardcore biker chick

Im actually not sure why they hold such a power over me

But the month of july is dedicated to worshipping the cherry

Its only the 8th...

and my stomach already hates me

I don't think I can eat even one more

And unlink that extremely annoying commercial, I don't think I can force myself to choke down some cherry flavored pepto bismol...

Thats just nasty

Who wants artificial flavored cherry, when you can have the real stuff

I heard a rumor once that to cure a stomach ache, you should eat cherries

I think I should get on that

The Return

I'm back!!

Fresh from the jungles of Costa Rica... no seriously

Its so weird to be back in civilization

It feels awkward flushing toilet paper down the toilet

And I look like I have some kind of disease due to all the mosquito bites covering my body

But I'm back!

I thought I could burst onto this blog and write every one of my feelings down

But its not flowing that easily

To describe the experience of my trip with basic english vocabulary would be near impossible

This trip was exactly what I needed

and I had no idea

I fought it with everything I had at first

and I had no idea why

But then, one day, while sitting on the steps outside the hostel, staring into the surrounding green foliage

it just hit me

This is it

This was that thing that I have been waiting for to help me figure myself out

And that is exactly what it did

When I look back at my journal, the entire journey is layed out for me to read

Beginning in the airport and ending... I don't think I did an ending entry... but ending with a conclusion of myself

I can see the changes as they occur

I can see the light bulb go off

And its the most amazing thing I have read

And I read a lot of stuff on this trip, a total of 8 books I believe

but thats beside the point

I not only found myself

But I found out that I have a strong addiction to hammocks

and ended up purchasing and lugging back "the perfect hammock"

I met some truly amazing people

I formed a new family, Solo Bueno

I discovered how easy and how refreshing it is to live with only the bare essentials

and that taking jager bombs the night before your departure... might not be the best idea

I learned so much about myself, I can't even begin to list them all

The last entry that I left on this blog before I departed was titled I AM

My last entry in my Costa Rican journal is titled I AM

and it is the true answer to who I am

I did it

So what's next?

Well, besides taking advantage of hot showers

free flowing ice for drinking water

and air conditioning

I think I have a life to live, that for the past few months I have put on hold

I'm back!

I AM

I'm back from a long break

It wasn't a break on purpose... I just haven't had anything that I feel passionate enough to write about.

My mind has been going a thousand miles an hour

It never stops, I swear.

I know this has been a year of discovery.

I feel like I finally know who I am.

But at the same time, I have no idea who this person is I am living day to day with.

Im confused.

Im confused on many levels and about many different things.

I fell upon an artist yesterday,

I knew about her awhile back, but only a few songs

And now I am absolutely in love with her music

Missy Higgins has the most powerful lyrics

And I feel like they all relate to me

Although these are taken out of context, one on my favorites is from her song Where I Stood

It says, "See I thought love was black and white, that is was wrong or it was right...."

I thought that coming home, I would be able to open up, and be me

I knew it would take a lot of explaining and a lot of patience

I had no idea that I wouldn't even be able to mutter the words

It could be because I don't even know what words I feel like I need to say

Its definitely not black and white

It could be because I don't even know if I should say anything at all

They seem so distracted and sad already

It could be because I don't get any support from the one person in my life who is supposed to love me unconditionally... so how will the rest react?

My mom is a wonderful woman.

She is funny, kind, quick witted and quick loving.

She sees the good in everybody and has the patience to deal with those I would never attempt.

So how can she be so closed minded?

how can she be so mean, without even knowing she is being a hypocrite to her faith?

Love

Although some say its simple, it really is one of the more complicated things in this life.

How can she love me, If the me she loves is truly not me?

If I fake it, if I act like it was a joke, a phase then the love and laughs poor in...

but as soon as I mention something, anything, she turns her head away, gets quiet and even walks away from me.

It can be a simple comment, one that anyone could say and she would think nothing about it, anyone ... except me.

How am I supposed to figure out all of these things that are going on inside my head, if I know that one path would never be accepted, even by the one person that is supposed to love me through everything?

These last weeks I have begun to understand even more what all this means

I understand the extent of this, as well as my concerns

But on  lighter note.. I have begun to understand that I don't need to figure it all out

I need to relax and let my heart speak for itself

Because that is what got me in this position in the first place, right?

I am beginning to like myself

Finally

Part of me wants to say, "screw it" As long as I am happy, as long as I know this is who I am, as long as I follow my heart, I will be happy, I will have a happy life and that is all that matters.

But another part of me wants approval, wants that love, wants that acceptance from her, from all of them, and I wonder how I can live a happy life, if I know I am letting them down.

But I know what the answer should be

Thanks to Afterellen.com and youtube videos I finally have come to a place that I am comfortable

This is me.

This is who I am.

I did not choose it.

But I am happy with who I am.

I like me. 

I like this life that has chosen me.

And if they don't like it, then thats too bad.

Because this is me.

And I am happy.

I think the next thing I need to figure out is how far I want to stick my body out

Right now I have a foot out

And although the foot keeps getting smashed, I feel like its time to maybe stick an arm out, or another foot and maybe my entire body....

I know I don't need "proof"

Because my heart is proof enough.

but I could wait? Which is what I will probably do

But I would give anything to just JUMP out and SCREAM from the top of my lungs

Because I AM ready to celebrate

I am proud

And this is the month

So, I don't know at what exact level

But they say its fluid

All I know is I am

and I AM proud

So I look forward to the day when I can stand proudly in front of them, smile big and say

I am gay

:)

Steer - Missy Higgins

*I recommend clicking where it says so you can hear the whole song... its wonderful

xoxo

-K

News Snooze

I have lost all creative spark

For some reason, the idea of sitting down and writing a post was the last thing in the world I wanted to do

Which is strange, because I am bored out of my mind, and do absolutely nothing all day

This home is a creative vibe killer

a mind flow murderer 

a sparkle mood squasher

Truthfully, I have dozens of things I could write about

Honestly, I don't really want to write about even one of them

I do have a lot of music news that I wouldn't mind sharing

1. Over Memorial Day weekend I attended Sasquatch Music Festival

It was fucking amazing

I can't even begin to describe to you the feelings I had while listening to my favorite bands, one after the other, under the blistering sun

Live, Raw, cheering crowds, flashy lights, pure music

It was amazing

Not only was I able to see the Yeah Yeah Yeahs, School of Seven Bells, Passion Pit and Fleet Foxes -- but I got to dance to beautiful M83.

Thinking back on this 3-day camping, crazy, sweaty weekend, I cant believe I didn't have a heart attack right there in The Gorge due to pure happiness

2. I just sat around for over 2 hours listening to a non-profit radio station, streamed over my computer... after hearing the news my one and only love, UHH, would be making an appearance

It was painful

The music played was... abstract, and not in a good way

I stared at a small in-studio webcam in hopes of a screenshot of the lovely ladies

But, It was totally worth it

Not only was I able to see their beautiful faces come out of their studio hibernation, but they played a DEMO!! 

Yes, that is right. They played for us one of their DEMO songs, fresh from the studio, pulled straight from their car

and it was absolutely amazing, AMAZING

It was called Human Nature--- and even the rough cut was mesmerizing

I can't wait for the new album

AH! I love Uh Huh Her.

3. After some random researching on wikipedia etc.

I learned that one of my other favorite bands (before they were crazy famous I might add) 

MGMT- Actually released an album way before Oracle Speculation

It was under their original name The Management---

and guess what... I found it!

At least I believe I found a few of their songs on Imeem

Its definitely a different sound, check it:

Hot Love Drama - MGMT

There are a bunch more... 

I had a hard time just picking one.. 

If you are curious at what their original sound was like, you should check the others out

4. One more lovely thing that came out of Sasquatch was my new appreciation for St. Vincent

I heard a few tunes before,

Since she is on UHH's top 4 on myspace, 

But I never appreciated it until the festival

She was incredible live

so now I like her

And I just found out that she played a show at the El Rey.. and they attended

Just my luck

The list of things I have missed since deciding to come home for summer is endless

which is why I wont list it here

But I got a puppy?!

That should make up for things right?

And I feel my creative spark coming back

Oh wait, I think thats just a muscle spasm from my workout today

Yeah, false alarm

xoxo

-K

Anaphylaxis

I went to the allergy doctor on monday

In hopes of getting a prescription for an EpiPen

I got the prescription - so now I won't die when I eat walnuts

But in the process I was tested for and came out positive for a few other shitty allergies

including: Pecans, almonds, egg whites, and corn

which means for the next 10 days I have to eliminate all of these from my diet and then slowly introduce them in....

Do you know how many things corn is in?

It's in pretty much any processed foods... including my recently purchased gluten free bread

I choose to eat gluten free but because of this new restricting diet I have had to eat gluten.. because otherwise I would literally starve

For example: My favorite pretzels that are gluten, dairy and egg free- have corn in them!

And I usually eat almond butter instead of peanut butter

My whole world has been turned upside down

I'm not complaining really, it's more of a..... whine. 

I like trying healthy food thingy's-- I would become vegetarian and then progress to vegan if I had the will power. But eliminating all red meats and pork/sausage + gluten is good enough for me right now... 

Actually I would love to be pescatarian (when you eat fish but no other meat)

I think I would like to/have started progressing to that...

and I do feel better

Its amazing how healthy you feel when you eliminate unnecessary foods from your everyday diet

There is a reason people say vegetarian's skin glow

Rice cakes have become my new friend

gluten free +nut free. yum!

Its interesting how as soon as you eliminate the addictive foods from your diet, food simply becomes a means for survival. 

Instead of eating for fun/enjoyment... food is what fuels you through the day

This fresh outlook is almost exhilarating in its own way

I just realized I used the word "its" an unnatural amount in this post

Which is why I will leave you now

Ps. Did I mention you have to jab an EpiPen into your leg to make it work?

yeah.. sounds fun

xoxo

-K

Tachycardia Tuesday

Do you know what give me tachycardia?

New music! chya! ( Is that how you spell that sound affect?)

Today was the epic release of the new Passion Pit album- Manners!

I have already listened to it way too many times.

Its amazingly good.

AND

It was the release of Au Revoir Simone's new album-Still Night, Still Night

I didn't buy it... but I am really, really tempted

Instead I bought the entire Crystal Castles album, 

simply because after picking and choosing ones to purchase it ended up that I only had under half a dozen songs left and the price was too hard to pass up.

It was a great purchase.

AND

I also bought the entire Chairlift album- Does You Inspire You

Because I was unable to pick only a couple songs, and once again the "Buy Album" price was way too good.

I kind of went on a music purchasing/myspace listening adventure extravaganza

It was awesome!

That is the only reason I like top 5's- (or more of top 30 when it comes to bands)

They always have the most amazing band friends to discover

Now my "Stickies" on my compute have an incredibly long wish list of music

Someday I will be wealthy enough to go through that entire list and click "buy" on itunes for every song

But for now... I can only keep adding.... (34 and counting!)

So thats my tachycardia for the day... 

New music is the best...

Now my ipod shuffle will never be switched to off

xoxo

-K

"Gnar"

My toes curl when I play the bass

I have no idea what that has to do with anything

but it's kind of weird right?

I have successfully learned shit about the bass

but it sure is pretty to look at?!

Ok, thats a lie... I know how to read music 

and I know how to read tab

and I know how to strum

and I know a few Uh Huh Her songs

yeah, I know... and yes, my love of UHH runs that deep

So I have a few songs for you

Only because my r.......wow... have you seen the new suave commercial? hot!

I knew blogging and "watching" tv at the same time was no a good idea

Ok, here are the songs..

the first one I fell upon by accident, and I thought that I didn't like it

and then I found myself singing it yesterday and couldn't get it out of my head

so I guess I like it, or at least my subconscious does

Good With You - L.P.

And this is just a cool remix that is nice to drive around to

They (Cut Chemist Mix) - Jem

I bought a Fleetwood Mac record for $1

Its the best purchase I have made.... in a long time

I am still searching for another David Bowie-Ziggy Stardust

Although mine plays, the warped sounds are driving me crazy

and thats just not ok with my favorite album.

I have mastered Maps-by Yeah Yeah Yeahs on the hard level while playing Rockband

My dog is snoring hardcore right now... and I mean hard-core

I still wonder what the hell I'm doing at home

Worst choice I could have made

I'm Malibu-sick... I miss my friends like crazy

and it doesn't help that they keep calling/messaging me saying that I made a huge mistake and that I have to come back... they even have an appt. that has a view of the hollywood sign, how sweet is that!?

oh jeez

I used the word "Gnar" the other day... as in a shortened version of gnarly...

it was really embarassing

especially because I said it in the checkout line at Whole Foods to describe the "Gnar" fresh produce I bought...

ugh

THE NEW PASSION PIT ALBUM IS RELEASED TOMORROW!

like OMG, this is like going to be like the best day like ever!!

Ok, back to green tea sipping and bass guitar "rocking" haha

if thats what you can even call it

xoxo

-K

Dandruff

I found a couple of new bands today

Im not sure if I love them... but they are kind of a breath of fresh air

The first one I stumbled upon is called Dance Yourself to Death

Its a 4 piece band, 3 girls + one very gay guy

Its neat because the energy coming out of the band is super positive

They made fans like Elton John before their EP was even released!

Now thats a sweet story

Their guitar player Carmen Elle has two other side projects she is working on

including a solo album soon be released-proving she has much more musical talent than was is showcased in DYTD (like a crazy cool voice!)

I haven't become hooked on any of their songs yet...

but they are definitely growing on me and will most definitely be playing from my speakers in the future

The second band I came across (Thanks to the top 5 of DYTD)

is the band Hunter Valentine

This is a three piece all girl band.. but they definitely can not be put in the category girl band

Their music has a hardcore badass edge to it that grips fans of all types

It definitely sucked me in youtube videos and all

Their lead singer not only has a sweet name, Kiyomi, but her look isn't too shabby either

Each girl adds their own spice to the band, and their own looks

making this band a lesbian buffet for fans, their is something for everyone

Between the two bands I think I may enjoy DYTD's music a little more....

or maybe...?

Actually they both are pretty unique so its hard

I will have to listen to them a little more before I can call myself a fan...

I haven't had that heart grab that I normally get with my repeat albums

Thought I would write an extremely boring post for you and.....

I dunno, guess you could check them out if you are a fan of queer music

or even if you aren't.. they claim to have plenty of indie kids and rocker fans too

For some reason this picture of city lights I took reminds me of Sex, Drugs and Rock and Roll
and for some other strange reason I thought it would be fitting for this post
so there you go

Ok... 

bye

xoxo

-K

One Week

Ragged Wood - Fleet Foxes

Lately I have been on this hardcore Fleet Foxes listening session...
The mixture of rambling melodies, soothing vocals and twangy instruments fits perfectly into my life right now
It describes musically what I am feeling emotionally
And I think it has to do with the fact that I feel like I am once again living in the boonies

Today I was watching The Hills (don't make fun, it was literally the only thing on tv unless I wanted to watch A Baby Story on TLC-birthing sequence-no thanks!)
Anyways... The Hills always has flashes of pictures and video of Los angeles and Hollywood across the screen between every dramatic scene
I began watching the tv only in anticipation of those glimpses of what I left behind
Who cares about pissed off LC or crying Audrina... I just wanted to see the sunshine, rolling hills and beautiful backed up traffic on the 5

What am I doing home?
I think I have asked myself this question way too many times for only being home... one week.
one week!? sh*t. That just threw me off...

Its ok.
I will just... hike a lot.
yeah, hiking makes everything ok.
Oh jeez... 3 months.

Right now I wish there was a way I could type with my keyboard the very emotion/face that would be perfect right now.
A toothy sideways grin strained at the eyes with little squints..... Can you picture it?

Lets just enjoy some more Fleet Foxes

Blue Ridge Mountains - Fleet Foxes
yumm

xoxo
-K

Mothers

Happy Mother's Day

I had a hard time deciding which word to start my sentence

Thats never happened to me before

At least not that extreme of a case

I guess I am having a hard time even understanding what all these feelings are swirling around my head..

I can't even imagine trying to find words to describe them

The first thing that pops up on your screen in a chat window is usually a good example of what you are truly feeling (depending on who you are talking to of course)

But.. since its such an instant-kind of interaction.. you don't have time to really think about what you are typing.. and it just pops out.

Today while talking to one of my really good friends, the first thing that popped up on my screen worth mentioning was the phase:

I feel unwelcome in my own home

And it is true

I think

I feel so... alone

Its weird

I usually thrive on this feeling down in LA.. its my independent LA lifestyle feeling

But why am I feeling it here?

I have a few ideas why... but I don't want to jump to conclusions... especially because every time I do my mom jumps at the opportunity to say that I am too sensitive and need to find some self confidence...

I might have more self confidence if I didn't know that my mom doesn't approve or understand or even accept my lifestyle.. who I am.

And I have no idea when she is thinking about that topic

And I have no idea who she has talked to about it

And then I think... or at least I should think to myself...

Who cares?

I should be me

Whoever that is

Who I believe I am

(Because this was the year I found myself, right?)

So I will be that person I finally found

And screw all those who don't like this me...

because this me.. is the true me

Oh yeah, Happy Mother's day mom

Street Art

"I been doing some transparent stencil work with junk I find in the streets, I got the idea when looking into my reflection in a canal jammed full of garbage, it was quite beautiful to see myself through all the various plastic colors and products that come through me and my use, it may be high time we did some practical looking at what kind of beauty we represent and how it reflects on ourselves, true monuments are out floating somewhere in ambiguity, urban definitions are easy to use and throw away. The street reflects inevitably the land and those who can't get over its use and responsibility, man that canal stinks!!"... Ryan Spring Dooley

Once again I found another street artist that inspires me. 

This guy is crazy good.

I only wish the photos would be zoomed out just a little so I could see where the art was placed... that always makes more of an impact.

It actually is pretty funny how much I love this stuff.

I really have no idea why it makes me feel the way it does.

Maybe I should drop out of college and become a street artist?

Oh wait, I have absolutely no talent when it comes to that...

hmm... maybe not.

Sike.

Yes, I just brought back sike.

Sick.

xoxo

-K

You're Fit

Jump In The Pool (Thin White Duke Remix) - Friendly Fires

I am in a really awkward mood today.
And I have no idea why.
This song describes what I feel like.
For some strange reason.
It just fits.

xoxo
-K

Warm-up

So I have epically failed at being a full time blogger.

It's been exactly one week since my last post.

Thats just sad.

I was striving to have at least something posted everyday.

FAIL.

I do have a pretty good excuse though.

Thurs.-Sunday I didn't have internet access.

I was technically homeless, living in a friend's aunt's guesthouse for the weekend.

I then I had a 13 hour drive.

Not fun.

I know its not a true excuse. 

There are always ways to get around hang-ups.

And I know if I was a true blogger I would have found a way to steal some internet time.

But I didn't really feel very creative sitting in a public restroom trying to find internet access.... for some strange reason I felt the need to be as fast as possible, and sitting on a closed toilet lid didn't really spark the writer in me.

So here I am...

finally able to sit down and write a post,

and it sucks.

Apparently I have become a little rusty in my technique.

We will just call this post "warm-up"

Because I obviously need to get back into the groove before anything profound is typed by these hands.

Here is a song...

because I am awfully sorry

Wolf Cub - Burial & Four Tet

xoxo
-K

MuSICK BEATS!

Hi there!

Today has been a lovely day...

and I am not really sure why, its just a good day.

Have you ever done every single piece of laundry you own?

Its a pretty amazing feeling... to know that you have an infinite amount of clean clothes in front of you.

Ok, to be honest, I have absolutely nothing to talk to you about today.

So, instead of rambling on like a complete fool about unnecessary things like the swine flu and jean jackets.. instead I will deliver to you the music extravaganza post.

Enjoy!

Sit Down By The Fire - The Veils

Houses - Great Northern

Tunnelvision - Here We Go Magic

And for my love of Francais...

Comme des enfants - Coeur de pirate

And my new (re-found) song obsession...

Help, Im Alive - Metric

Happy Wednesday
xoxo
-K