This is life

Time slips

Its slippery and slimy and squirmy

No matter how hard you try, no matter how tight you hold it

It will always slip away

It's taken me 20 years and 352 days to truly understand this concept

I mean to truly understand it

And here I am, not even watching my life move in fast forward,

instead it's like im blindfolded... not even taking the care to

open my blackened eyes and enjoy the fast blur of images...

I was lazy enough to simply stand oblivious as some of the most precious and most important events in my life went by, unseen.

It always takes a song to wake me up

Its the one thing that always slaps me awake,

that brings me back to reality.

Bon Iver

Why does it bring tears to my eyes?

Because I remember the feeling of butterflies I got in my stomach as I heard him play live for thousands, on a stage lit by stars, standing next to the person I love the most, my best friend, my sister. It was one of the most magical, most happy moments I can remember.

And then I remember that night. The night we sat by candle light... scribbling in our journals, weaving bracelets, listening to the storm outside and Bon Iver, mixing as they hit our ear drums. I remember looking up, and seeing your face in the candle light. You smiled. And that trip was amazing. I would do anything to be there, right now. How could I have taken it for granted? I apologize, because it truly was so great to be there with you. What an extraordinary summer. Bon Iver, he brings it all back to me. And I am so moved with memories, I cry... every time.

This is life

This is what we are living for

life is what we are living for

So I need to stop waiting around for my life to begin

because it has begun

This is life