homesweethome

The perks of being home:

1. edible food

2. big bed

3. good food

4. no alarm clock

5. really good food

6. hugs

7. amazing food

8. sister's closet full of clothes

9. home cooking

10. fresh air

11. organic food

12. telling/hearing stories

13. no caf. food

14. bass guitar

15. did I mention the food?

16. sibling fun

17. seeing old friends

18. realizing how much you've matured

19. relax

20. tv

21. clean private bathroom

22. rockband

23. reunion with pets

24. watching cats high off catnip

25. inside jokes

26. the ability to be naked in your room... even if you don't feel the need to be

27. incense/candles... flames in general

28. fresh clean clothes, that really are clean

29. profuse amounts of love

30. being spoiled by grandma

31. not following intense workout plan

Ok. Thats all I can think of now.. additions may be added later in the week.

xoxo
-K

SoN

Don't you hate when people abbreviate tv shows like that.. SoN, OTH, TLW its like they are saying... I am so connected to this show, I don't even need to call it it's real name... ohhh k. I admit it, I am one of those freaks... but only when talking to other people who obsess the same amount when a new episode comes out, aka other people who use the lingo.

SoN.. South of Nowhere... I kept hearing about it on Autostraddle updates etc. but I never thought about actually checking it out. So last night, since I had absolutely nothing to do but procrastinate from packing, I decided to give it a try. It's not bad. Ok, its actually pretty good. 

There were parts that were like every other team drama though. Actually I feel like the new 90210 copied ALOT from this show. The intro is almost identical, just different actors and a new song. The set up is similar... main girl from ohio (kansas in 90210) with two brothers, one is an adopted african american (one african american brother in 90210) and the girl is disgustingly innocent until she meets her outsider friend Ashley (silver in 90210) and begins to like the all-star guy at high school Aiden (ethan in 90210) who is dating the queen bee Madison (Naomi in 90210) I think that is pretty much all of the similarities.. oh, well based in LA but they seem to drive to Malibu or Santa Monica a lot more than is feasible. 

So 90210 definitely ripped off some ideas from this show, but SoN definitely ripped some ideas off of One Tree Hill... like the two basketball stars competing for the number one spot. The bus leaves them behind and they have to walk a really long way in the dark in their dressed up outfits since it was an away game... and then begin beating each other up along the way. 

I don't know... its all pretty funny I think. Actually, its kind of sad that I watched like 6 episodes last night. but its addicting.... and this one does have a nice twist. The gay theme. Its hard to find t.v. shows that introduces a main character as questioning her sexual orientation in the pilot. Its got a lot of sexual tension build up... but every time I get excited about that I am reminded how lame it will probably end up due to the little white tv-pg stamp in the corner of the screen. 

I guess Ill have to get my little "fixes" from TLW.... but only for 9 more days :( 

Anyways.. here are the three characters that make the show worth all the cliches.

        Ashely                    Aiden                      Spencer

Hmmmm, just what I need... another tv show! not.

xoxo,

-K

graFFFFFitti

I bombed a test today. Well, actually I took the test on tuesday... so I guess you could say I completely failed the test on tuesday, but I got it back today. And, I'm not talking, stupid type-A personality, oh poor me I got a C on a test... no.. I bombed it. I completely failed it. 42%.. F! I'm pretty sure thats how many points you get just for writing your name on the top of the test. 

I could tell it would be a bad one when she handed mine back like... second to last... I have a feeling she orders them best to last, or last to best... whatever order makes sense to make mine on the bottom of the pile. 

Usually I don't care when I do bad on a test. I shrug it off and think.. oh well, there are always tests before and after... thats the point of multiple exams.. but a 42% on a midterm... thats harsh. Not to mention a 76 or something like that on the previous exam... I am so f*cked. I am not going to pass this stupid class. Either that or I am barely going to pass... which would totally be fine with me.. as long as I don't have to retake it. 

Well, this is just a depressing post. I guess I wanted to share my wonderful day with you.. but don't worry I wont talk about all the other sh*t that happened today. Let's talk about how amazing the weather is... it's gorgeous. Perfect SoCal weather. Love it! Of course I am leaving for springbreak as soon as the nice spring weather shows up.

Alright, enough about retarded weather. I came across the wesbsite from a twitter post, and I am absolutely in love with it. First of all, you should know I absolutely love graffiti. I think grafitti makes boring, gross grey walls colorful and beautiful. Yeah, they may not always be happy pictures, but I love the idea, and have always loved underground culture behind it all. The website is called Wooster Collective, and they have great pieces of art from all over the world. Here is one of my favs...


PLAYGROUND LOVE from ABOVE on Vimeo.

maybe you should go check out the site?

xoxo
-K

Hug Day

Hug.

That word sums up my day. And I know you are reading this and thinking, wtf, I have no idea why that word sums up her day? And I don't really care. To be blunt. 

Hug.

I am so happy right now, I could burst. 

Hug.

Although it was slightly awkward (I am not a very good, spur-of-the-moment hugger) It still happened. And it was not initiated by me.

Hug.

Thats what we have progressed to. Thats a big step. Purposeful contact, isn't that supposed to be a clue? I used to get butterflies when the foot from the crossed leg would brush up against my leg when we pulled our chairs closer to study. 

Hug.

wow. Then again.... maybe I'm way over-thinking this.. like usual. Maybe I am making it more of something I want, then what is actually there. Friendship. That could describe the action just as much. 

I don't really like the music video... it doesn't evoke the emotion that I feel when listening to this song.. but its still an amazing song, and I would really like to share it with you... here's the video/song. So, I guess you could just close you're eyes and listen...

Its called Teen Angst by M83



I have become obsessed with this band. I have their new album on repeat pretty much 25% of my day... (Tegan and Sara are another 25%) then you know, random songs in there too... but anyways. Hope you had a good hump day aka. wednesday.. I actually dont like that name for wednesday.. its just awkward. I know its supposed to be awkward on purpose, but its just not cool.
I think Ill call today hug day... yeah, thats more appropriate.

-K

Tachycardia Tuesday

Tachycardia Tuesday... thats what I've decided to call every tuesday.

Tachycardia- Typically refers to a heart rate that exceeds the range of normal resting heart rate.

So what makes my heart beat fast.

This week is none other than my L word favorite couple. Talice.

This weeks episode "Lactose Intolerant" had a scene that definitely gave me tachycardia, so I have decided to share it with you to help kick off our tachycardia tuesdays.

Just ignore the awkward and annoying 3rd-wheel tag along Jamie.

Hope you enjoyed this scene with Leisha Hailey and Rose Rollins, they really have great chemistry together.

xoxo
-K

Monnnnday

Its monday. Monday Monday Monday. 

I know there is normally a whole negative feeling toward this particular day of the week. But I have nothing against it. In fact, I really have no favorites when it comes to the day of the week. Except tuesday, tuesdays a b*tch. Class just doesn't end. But its not tuesday, its monday, so it was a good day. Like I said, I always look forward to monday because then I get to watch my fav. tv show everrr. But more on that tomorrow,  ;) you'll see. 

So. Lately I have been listening to a couple of women, no not Uh Huh Her... but close. It's Tegan and Sara! They are amazing, they have always been amazing. Right now they are on year 10 I believe and just came out last year with album #5 which is totally impressive. They are uber talented and I beleive it only right since I have been listening to them on repeat lately (particulary The Con, great album, you should check it out) annnnnd its monday (like I said before repeatedly) So, I think this video fits!

Later gator,
-K

The L Word

It's sunday night, so I thought it only right to blog about why I look forward to every sunday night with great anticipation. 

The L word.

Although, technically I wait for every monday with great anticipation because I don't own showtime so I have to wait until someone loads the video on greatstufftv.com or sidereel.com or something like that. But.. that is totally beside the point.

I love The L Word. I love it for some many reasons. I love it for so many reasons that I really dont understand at all. It's actually quite a funny story how I found out about the show. It happened when my friend Meaghan and I were reallllly bored one weekend that she came to visit me. We literally had nothing to do because it was dead winter, snowing like f*'n crazy and the mountain was closed because it was so stormy. So, we decided to head over to Hollywood Video and rent some stupid shows so we could lie in bed in a coma for the next week. We came across the first two seasons of The L word, and without reading the back decided that the cover looked cool, the women looked badass so, why not. Well, shortly after popping the DVD into my laptop we realized that it was a lesbian show. But because the show is so amazing, we just kept watching it. Yeah, the sex scenes were slightly awkward but we just didn't talk about it, we acted like we were watching something as innocent as The Little Mermaid. Well, after she went back home I still had the DVD's to return, but instead sat down and ended up finishing all two seasons, not only that but I searched for the next season and got completely up to date. 

We never talked about that week ever again. We actually acted for the last 4 years like it never happened. Until the last time she visited me over christmas break this year.

See our families are really close, one night for dinner we decided to head out to a fancy dinner with the parents so we could ditch our little sisters to hangout/ take care of the little bro's for the night. It ended up being a really good idea, because the food was awesome. Anyways, lately I have really started to become interested into one of the actresses of The L word, Leisha Hailey (yes, the same Leisha in Uh Huh Her, see the connection) Yeah, well I have been into her for awhile but just lately I decided to become more verbal about it, wrong idea. My mom is all weird about it.... wait this is getting into a totally different topic... I will just leave it at this. My mom told Meaghan, Meaghan connected it to The L Word, and then she looked at me like, "wait! You still watch that show?" and it was really awkward. Ok. 

The real reason I wanted to talk about this topic was the countdown. See that little widget on the side of my profile? The little countdown.. its at 13 days as of today. 13 days until I feel lost again. 13 days until I feel alone. The L word means a lot to me. I don't really understand it yet, this feeling. But for some reason or another the L word has really changed my life, not to sound totally cliche or anything. But its true. It has completely opened my eyes. It has opened this whole new world to me. It has made me look at my life and think to myself, "wow, it all makes sense." At this point in my life I really am lost. I don't really understand everything thats going on in my head. But I bet this post gives a few pretty obvious clues to you. I am still trying to figure it all out. Im still trying to find all the answers, if there are answers to these kinds of questions. I hope I find them. And soon. 

I think I want to talk about this post a little later. But for now, I will just leave it at this. I just really wanted to talk about how much I love The L Word and that I am really going to miss it after this last season, I think there are only like 3 more episodes left. Season 6 has really been different than all the other seasons. I am not sure if I like it yet or not. I definitely enjoyed season 5, a lot. I hope by the end of this season the closure will be good, because I need closure. haha. Its like a relationship, am I wrong? All of us, the fans, have had this 6 year relationship with The L Word and its now coming to an end. How sad. We will always have nice memories though. And we will always have DVD's and reruns to live off of. Repeat the same scenes over and over and over again, oh wait, I already do that. Seriously, what would I do without youtube?

I will leave you with a picture of my favorite scene of season 6 so far.

Oh Talice.

xoxo
-K

NothingandEverything

So, I have this whole list of generated ideas scribbled on a piece of paper sitting right next to me. They are good ideas, full of fun links I could show you, possibly pictures, maybe even as shnazzy as a music video or two. But I don't feel like writing about them. Not even one. None of them make my heart race a little bit, or make my fingertips itch in anticipation to type. None of them I feel passionate about, at least not at the moment. Most of the topics I could barely hold myself back from writing about the minute I thought about them. But not right now. Right now I feel like closing my eyes, and just listening. 

This past month I have been an itunes fiend. Usually I find a few songs here and there, add them to my library and then in a few days completely forget about them and move on. But not this song. There is something special about it, and I can't quite put my finger on it. Its not a complicated song, its not up-beat or dance-able. But it makes me want to move. Just close my eyes and sway. Music does this to me sometimes. Sometimes I look like a complete fool because I get so engrossed in the music I completely forget my surroundings and who might be watching me. But I don't really care. 

I am a pretty reserved person by nature. I wish I was that extrovert that would dance in the middle of a party, or scream across the room at a friend, or walk up and introduce myself or laugh with a complete stranger. But thats not me. I am shy, reserved, I over-think things wayyy too often. But when there is music, music that I am really into, its a completely different story. 

Music is my world, its my world I can escape to. Its my world where I am that extrovert; where I am that person I have always wanted to be. Not on purpose of course, it just does it to me. 

Music is everything to me. Without it I would not live. Actually without it I can honestly say I would be dead. I would die. Because it got me through one of the hardest times of my life. I was so depressed, I can be honest with you and say that I didn't want to live anymore. There were only two things that got me through that time in my life. Music and the thought that my grandfather, or I call him Papa, would be devastated without me. One of those have passed on. One of those vital ingredients to my life has left me. I think its obvious that its the latter. But one has not left. One will never leave me. Music is everything to me. It was there to help me not only get through that really hard year, even couple years I guess you could say. But it was there to help me when my second back up on life passed on. Loosing my grandpa has been one of the hardest things I have dealt with. Music has helped me cope with these two major tragedies in my life. I know I am being cryptic with my first depression, but its  a hard topic/subject to talk about. Not only emotionally, but it requires a lot of explanation. I think it may have to be something I touch on in another post. 

Unfortunately the song that moves me so much was just released Feb. 17 2009 ( although I bought it on itunes at the beginning of the month) So there is no youtube video that I can display the song for you. I can tell you what song it is though.

Faunts- So Far Away

Its beautiful. Moving. Its surreal actually in the way it makes me feel. I love the other songs on this album too, its absolutely, for lack of a new, more interesting word, its beautiful. The album is  Feel.Love.Thinking.Of  in case you were wondering.

Well, I am off to bed. Long day. I hope this post didn't bore you too much. Happy Saturday night.

-K

Uh Huh Herrrrr

I think it only right that my first official post be about one of the biggest loves of my life. My one true obsession, and yes, it has progressed to the level of obsession. They are not only talented, they are multi-talented. They are not only beautiful, they are absolutely stunning. They are not only funny, but they are witty and charismatic and downright badass. I am talking about, none other than Uh Huh Her!

I absolutely love these girls! The music is indescribably good, and not just that but band members Camilla Grey and Leisha Hailey are two of the coolest people. They truly love their fans and it shows. Each of their concerts is like a performance, with high fashion clothes, high heeled shoes and a high pitched screaming crowd

I have been following this band from the very beginning. They first came out with an EP in 2007 titled "I See Red" which I immediately fell in love with. I knew as soon as I heard the first noted of "Say So" that this was going to be my new favorite band, and it was. They have filled the spot of my favorite band ever since. This last summer they released their full length album "Common Reaction" and each one of the 11 tracks are unbelievable. I could seriously never get tired of this album, and had it spinning in my car stereo for nearly 4 months without removing it. In August the girls made a music video to one of their more popular songs, "Not A Love Song" Here it is:

Both Leisha and Cam have said they have a little thing for unicorns, I think it shows... just a little bit. The merch for this band is so cute, you can tell the girls have had say in what goes on in that department. No bulky tees, or constricting collars... these tees are comfy. I bought one of the diamond designs, and love to wear it with pride. 

In November I was lucky enough to attend their concert at The Avalon. The night of the 14th was easily one of the best nights of my life. The music was fantastic, the girls looked so pretty, the crowd so excited and the energy was enormous. I had so much fun jumping around to the almost record-identical sound, one of the few concerts I have been to where the music actually sounded amazing live. Check out these vids from the concert on youtube, winkiedinkie did a great job filming the entire show.

I could seriously go on and on and on about just how amazing this band is. I truly am in love. But I will stop here. I hope you looked at some of the videos and enjoyed what you heard. This is just the first post of many, i'm sure, when I will profess my love for these girls.

Hope you had a great week! TGIF!

-K

numberone

So I finally took the plunge and made a blog...yay. I have been thinking about making one for quite some time, but just haven't had the balls to make one. And, assuming i haven't changed since the last time I went to the bathroom... I still don't have balls, but just decided to make a blog after all. I promise my jokes wont be as lame as that one, i'm just in a really awkward mood at the moment. 

Since I have been staling this project for a good month, I have a few pretty shnazzy ideas roaming around my head... hopefully you will think they're shnazzy too... or at least cool, dank, sweet, awesome, groovy, badass, epic, tubular, wicked, sick, or whatever term you use to describe something that you like. I seem to have a lot of fake time on my hands while I procrastinate from studying etc., so I think this should be a daily if not multi-daily (?) whatever you call it, kind of blog.

So, back to the balls. 

Just a little side note. Today I heard the craziest thing. I new study linked smoking pot with an aggressive form of testicular cancer. How much does that suck? Supposebly it can begin at the age 18..... one reason I am glad I don't have balls. 

Here's a link if you don't believe me:  cancer risk

 

Alright, moving on.

I am keeping myself anonymous for right now, simply because there are a few topics on my mind that I really want to share, and I will feel more comfortable staying discreet. Until I hopefully have worked through everything, I may then publish my real name, picture etc. But for now, you will want it this way too, trust me; you will get more honest posts from me. 

This post is simply to say "hi!" and welcome to my blog, I hope you stop by often to check it out!

-K