girls

Sometimes... I really wonder if its worth being a lesbian, for all this girl drama.
I mean, seriously.
girls are so dramatic.
I swear, if they weren't so damn cute... I would be over this.
But I can't even imagine being straight.
girls are so fucking gorgeous.
I mean come onnnnnn
So I guess this only means one thing,
I'll be dealing with this drama forever.
But I guess think about it..
girls and drama, no girls and no drama
I DEFINITELY pick the first choice ;)

mmmashup

JackJohnson, Missy Higgins and Wyclef Jean (Norwegian-Recycling)

fresh start

So its January 2011.

"Where the fuck have you been Kelsi?"

Thats what you might be asking, well those one or two people who actually read this.

And my answer is simple,

I was in an unhealthy, self-obsessing, overly stressful, time-consuming, deeply obsessive, disgustingly life encompassing, black hole of a relationship.

But good news.. Im free?!

Oh man... where do I even start?

It was the most powerful thing I have ever experienced, a love like that.

I didn't even know that it was possible to feel the way I did.

Head over heals doesn't even begin to describe that feeling of oozing insides I experienced

After a bad break up, many people say, "that was a waste of a year!" cough.. my ex.. cough.

But I don't feel that way at all.

It was one of the best years of my life, I experienced an extraordinary love.

The future felt obvious, we were going to get married, we were going to have a family. duh.

But now Im sitting her with a promise ring, an empty bed, and picking up the pieces.

Thats the hardest part of a relationship I think, picking up the pieces.

Your whole life revolved around this one person, and suddenly they are gone. Just gone.

Cold turkey.

That was her approach. No contact. Nothing.

Changed her phone number, blocked me on FB, deleted EVERYTHING.

Not only did I have to say goodbye to my love, but my best friend too.

How did she do it?

She has got to miss me too, right?

Or am just a total wimp?

She went from my everything, to my nothing.

So here I am, a month and....12 days later trying to put myself back together.

Im doing good I think.

I think.

I mean, I haven't cried in a long time. Thats a good start, right?

And Im trying to be happy and just move forward.

There is a cute girl out there for me, a cute girl who has everything I want in a perfect partner.

There was something always missing, for a year, something never there.

Now I can find someone that fills that gap, and then some more.

So here I am moving forward.

And yeah, I'm actually smiling while Im writing this.

Because its exciting, I get to start over again.

So lets get this fucking started!

:P